Okay so it’s actually apartment sitting – for my son while he’s gone up to the Yukon for work – but I’ve agreed to come over and check on his place, as well as taking up his offer of staying overnight to give me a break.
I’ve been out west now for over a year and the only time I’ve actually had away from my daughter and grandson was when they went to Ontario for Christmas – other than that, I’ve been at home every night with him. She’s had a chance to get out with friends and stay overnight at their places, but I’ve been at our place every night with my grandson.
Don’t get me wrong – I absolutely love spending all the time I have. Not a lot of grandparents get the opportunity to watch their grandchildren grow up before their eyes on a day to day basis. I love him so much and am so happy I’ve been given this chance.
But I am very grateful to be staying at my son’s for a few nights for the next month – to have some quiet time to blog, to read, or watch TV.
So tonight is my first night to spend on my own – and I sit here on my computer, with the lights low and music playing (ABBA of course). I will enjoy this next month with a few nights to myself, to plan my next adventure (and yes one is in the works to happen by the end of the year if everything goes right!).
I am in need of adult time – and that means to me adult time with people who are not my children! I know they are adults, but they are still my kids and always will be – even as adults!
I also miss my alone time – I almost feel lonelier living with my daughter and grandson than I ever did when I actually lived alone. Just to clarify though – I am not lonely. I am not in need of being around people constantly – just maybe once every couple of weeks it would be nice to have someone who is not family to go out with and have a coffee.
I am taking that step slowly now – I have signed up with some writing groups. Something else that has been put on the backburner at the moment is this blog – I miss writing in here but I always seem busy and when I’m finally relaxing in the evening after my grandson goes to bed, I just want to watch TV. Such a bad habit – almost as bad as mindlessly surfing the web or being on Facebook. It’s just excuses – I will make the change and put time in here and on my book.
I have also started looking for a job out here – I need to work. For financial reasons and for that adult time I need! Slowly my life will be back to a regular routine – for now I will continue to watch in wonder and awe at the new things my grandson does every day, and watch my granddaughter get bigger each day.